` ` SWEET ELEGANCE.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

YAY :D finally some good news after so many unpleasant things happened. passed my driving test :D wasted almost four hundred bucks just to re-take it. luckily i don't have to waste another four hundred bucks again. was telling myself that if i failed again today, i'll just stop harping on it and move on. like what one of the instructors told me "you don't live just because of a license. there are so many other big projects waiting for you. fail then just take again lah." lol i think this is so true. fail then just take again. so if i fail my 2B practical test, i shall not be upset. heard it'll be quite hard to pass anyway cos for the previous test, out of 80 testees, only 27 managed to pass. lols. and somemore they go by the year which you are born. which means i'll be at the back, the last few to be tested. erps. i think i'll just be nervous until i die inside the holding room. haha. anyway, the tester which i got today was much much MUCH better than the previous one. he talked alot during the whole test. before i drove off, he said alot of encouraging stuff and wished me good luck. that really boosted my confidence and i wasn't shivering anymore. throughout the circuit i was praying in my heart that i will not mount any kerbs or make any stupid mistakes. and it worked! i didn't get any points taken away in the circuit. all my demerit points came from the road. the most expensive one came from four random passengers who were trying to cross this 70km/h road while i was making a U-turn and the tester asked how come i didn't horn at them o.O lol i thought he will minus my points for honking instead lo. cos i think it's rude and i don't like to be honked at too. and anyway after the test, the tester randomly told me he lives in pasir ris too and near me somemore. haha so coincidental. most of the people in that session passed too. only one or two failed i think. i think it really depends on your luck. and the traffic lights were in my favour too :) i was so afraid that i had to E-brake if the lights turned amber. heng they didn't. haha. anyway, wanna thank all the instructors who have taught me before: mr lim, mr lee, mr ng, mr yip, mr ting and lastly the beng instructor mr sum. haha. he's the funniest instructor and he's damn beng. lol.

okay after tomorrow, i will only have to work for one more month before i say byebye to CGH and hello to life! :D hehs. our leave had better be approved if not >:@ to G. hahahaha. but shit i forgot to do two things before i leave today.. punch card and record temperature =X it totally slipped off my mind. okay i will be expecting her call tomorrow.. HAHA.

feeling so sweet ; 10:38 PM;Y

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Oh yes, i fell down today. And i'm not any embarrassed about it. Lol. It wasn't a very bad fall cos i fell on the rubbery surface in the playground. Was playing colour catching (-__-) with my cousins and i slipped and fell on this slippery part. It was a little painful but i didn't feel embarrassed at all. Just laughed at myself and also i haven't been falling down for ages. Lol choy. Anyway, my cousin got her SA1 results back already. Her teachers marked their papers in like within a week? Madness. Her english and science are still okay but not her maths!! She made like a thousand careless mistakes cos she didn't read the questions properly. And when i was going through the corrections with her, was abit impatient cos she kept walking out to the room and watch her sister play maple -____- Her compo was very badly done too. There were so many grammatical and phrasing mistakes. Haven't been letting her practise writing compo much. In fact i only did one complete one with her -_- Hai feel quite bad cos i didnt help her improve much from her previous exam. Shall be more fierce next time! But just now when i faked that i'm gonna get a bad sore throat cos i have been talking too much and she's not paying any attention, she became less active and was more wiling to listen. I should do that more often huh. LOL.

Okay there's exactly one more month to the end of my contract! Am looking forward to the fun days that i'm gonna have after that. HAHA. Bear with it!

feeling so sweet ; 9:25 PM;Y

Friday, May 15, 2009

Okay so he has finally agreed to move back. No conversations so far though. All i said to him this morning was 'EHH wake up' and 'drink your milo'. Lol. But i have to agree with my mum that the longer he drags to come back, the harder it will be for us to talk. I bet he still hates me cos i said so much bad stuff about that girl (which till now i still refuse to take back my words). But other than that, i can assure that i've already forgotten whatever he've said to me and whatever i've said to him. Oh well, let's just hope that the phrase, time heals all wounds, will really work yeah. Anyway, work has been getting more boring these days. I look forward more to lunchtime and the end of work everyday. And i look more forward to the end of my contract. I'm so gonna spend my time during july to the fullest. I shall re-do my hair first things first. Lol. And it seems like taking leave is getting harder these days. Things really do change over time. Give temp staff like us a break please. Okay i'm tired. Shall sleep at 10 tonight. Long day tomorrow again.

Pardon me for being a person i don't wish to be. But sometimes i can't help it but say, Leave me alone please.

feeling so sweet ; 9:48 PM;Y

Friday, May 08, 2009

So, one week has passed so quickly. It's not just another ordinary week. I realise it's rather difficult to be independent. Have been depending on my maid and my parents for all the household chores. Now I'm doing everything myself (except for the cooking part which unfortunately, I still CMI. Lol.). I don't know how are you doing out there, but anyway, just wanna say that I've already let bygones be bygones. I will not harp over the fact that you called me an ugly bitch or mummy's girl anymore. I will delete all those unpleasant messages. And it's up to your choice whether or not you still wanna regard me as your sister. I don't know if you really meant it in the message but oh well, maybe you just said it in anger. But, I still wanna advise that you'd better keep a distance from that BB. BB=bloody bitch, for your information. I will not disregard the fact that she is one and she still is. Bet she must have felt honoured watching a family fall huh. And broken how many people's hearts. What a 'catastrophic' change she had caused. Too heavy a word to use? Nah I don't think so cos I believe she is capable of doing that. I don't care whether she hates me or not cos I don't even wanna acknowledge her presence/existence. Anyway, you're welcome back anytime. It feels lonely to be at home with two fewer people. I know I don't show it but yes, I feel lonely and I wish I could have the old times where nothing of these had happened back again.

Okay tomorrow's Vesak Day. Imma wake up at 4am tomorrow. HAHA. So gotta be in bed now. And it's big feast day tomorrow too :D Home-made one. Haha. Yay looking forward to it :)

feeling so sweet ; 9:39 PM;Y

Sunday, May 03, 2009

ha, after all the exchange of very 'polite' messages last night, i've come to realise something. i don't know if i should be laughing or crying. anyway, even if i cried, i won't be crying over the fact that i've lost a brother. but crying over the fact that mum has just wasted fifteen years of her life bringing up a person whom we totally don't know anymore. all her worries, all her love and all her sacrifices have just gone down the drain. really, i'm just speechless from all your words. i don't know what your heart is made of and i don't know who you really are. if i were to ask what caused that change in you, i'm damn sure you know the answer yourself. fancy dumping us over a girl (bitch) whom you've only known for less than a year. and yah you can just call me an ugly bitch. i'm so happy to hear that coming from you (but please open your eyes bigger or put on your specs before you tell me that she has the looks. yucks.). anyway, let me just tell you one thing. when the whole world turns its back on you, the only people who will come to your rescue is your own family. now you're cursing us to break up. are you still human? nah, maybe not. probably cos every part of your brain is already filled up with that bitch's scent. oh well. what a pity. let's see how long you can survive outside yeah? i shall wash my hands off you. since you already think you own the world.

feeling so sweet ; 8:09 AM;Y

Saturday, May 02, 2009

~~CB fucking bitch~~. i shall not hesitate to call you that anymore. i've never disliked someone so much before. really, just GTFO and leave us alone man. you don't know how much misery you've caused to us. skin so damn bloody thick, no wonder you don't know your limits. ha what a shame.

feeling so sweet ; 10:47 PM;Y